Flashbacks & Flash Forwards

With over 189 news posts in the blog even I am amazed at how much stuff I was able to dig up. For those of you who haven’t followed my written posts before, I have never until this point kept a record of what I’ve written past five posts. With that in mind, this is the first time that the majority of df.com’s major blogs have ever been collected into one unified chronological piece of written work much less one that spans ten years. The latest trove of entries comes from my old work computer where I found the original 1999 web site with several gems. They all revolve me arguing with basically everyone in site. How I ever had any friends is beyond me– looking back it seemed I was constantly arguing with someone at any given point during the course of that year.

There’s been a lot of reflection during my travels collecting my own history. It’s amazing how much we both forget over time and more so how much we choose to forget even when we could recall. There is definitely a sense of history here and I almost feel like I’ve just collected my memoirs after two terms as the President of the US. I have to reflect on my short failings and my victories– something that is sometimes wonderful and other times painful to do. In the grand scheme of history mine is, but a small part of humanity’s overall course of time. I can say though the times have changed me in some way much about me is still the same. In many more ways I just finally have clarity of mind that for whatever reason I never possessed before.

The tenth anniversary was supposed to be about amassing the history of this grand project we call df.com, but in many ways it became my own personal journey of recalling who I am and where I come from. In the end, I feel exonerated to know that I have matured in many ways, but am a lot more easy going in so many important other aspects of self. Is that part of growing? Who knows. I leave the psychoanalysis to the pros. I’m just happy to have been able to take the ride and survive it all, as well as, to have the family and life I have now. I have been reminded these past few weeks of how truly blessed I am in oh so many ways whether it be my daughters, my wife, my mom, or my siblings. Not to mention all my friends and acquaintances.

On another note, I did get my MRI this past Monday (9/21) and the results were delivered to my orthopedist yesterday. With no emergency phone call coming in it appears all is good thus far. I will know definitely more this Monday (9/28) once I visit the orthopedist to discuss the results. I do think I’ll need at least minor surgery; but my hopes are high for a quick recovery. My arm is out of the sling and though I cannot bear any real weight with it– it does work and I can type. All in all, that’s all I can ask for considering the situation.

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